Thursday, 30 November 2017

2017 : What's up November?

Do you know that based on twitter, spanish people are more likely to tweet "Te amo" in November than in any other months?  ðŸ’˜ 

(1) My birthday!! (Not that I didn't notice that we grow less and less excited about birthday each passing year). It warms my heart to see all the wishes and surprises... I truly feel like I have the best people in life.

(2) Now I know, Taylor Swift will always tease us with the most repetitive, "what-the-heck-is-this" lead single (Shake it off? Anyone remember?). But all other songs in her new album Reputation is SO GOOD

(3) The weather sucks. In here, in my hometown, literally in everywhere this November. It has been month full of heavy rain, strong wind and cyclone.

(4) Listening to Lauv, while sipping my coffee with the soothing sound of the rain. #NovemberFeels

(5) Obsessed with stir fried water spinach and sambal now!!! (Ah elah bilang aja kangkung belacan keles).

(6) I'm transitioning from being a night owl to early bird.





Thursday, 16 November 2017

You knew.

Don't you dare,
Hand me all your pieces
and broken parts
When you knew it so damn well,

that you did all the breaking.

Sunday, 12 November 2017

Welcoming 23

At 22, most of us are trying to find our own place in this world- including me. There are many lessons in life that we can't find in our school textbooks, or in our teacher's lectures. These lessons we have to figure out all by ourself while trying to stay alive. 

(1) This year, I've seen a collective sadness in people's life. Loss of a child, Loss of loved ones, marriage issues, health problems, depression and even loneliness. Realize it or not, everybody is hurting. Everybody has their own pain to deal with. Everybody is fighting their own demon. This, somehow, motivates me to be more compassionate to others. To give more than what I can take. To be kind. Because I'm sure the world could use a little more kindness.

(2) Being financially independent is no doubt something that I'm proud of this year. But despite that, the work experience itself is truly humbling. I threw away all that I knew and learned things from scratch. I'm feeling blessed, because I know I'm not only working for the sake of corporate's profit and advantages, but also to help people improve their lives. I find it quite fascinating to be honest.

(3) People who truly love you will stay in your life, no matter what. Even when you're miles away, even if you've only got to see each other couple times in a year, even when you forget to call them or reply to their texts, even when you push them away sometimes. They understand your weird phases and they like you because you are.. just you. For that, I cherish them forever.

Happy birthday dear self, thank you for surviving another year; one hell of a crazy year. 23 has never looked so good now that I'm in it! 

Friday, 3 November 2017

Beautiful Lies



Is it a human thing that we worship the idea of strangling ourselves in life's most beautiful lies? 
Believing in homes we build day and night in people we pour our trust with. 
Craving a fast love, an easy way out.
Is it because we dont want to be the one to tucked ourselves into bed?
Or is it because we simply know, that when the world gets quiet, there's a marching sound of war ragin' in our heads. 
It come with a whisper :
'Oh dear, 
       ...what have you done to yourself?'

Sabrina putri.

Wednesday, 1 November 2017

2017 : What's up October?


I think this October has a warm vibe to it, I don't exactly know how. Life has been surprisingly good to me this month, my grateful heart is content!

1. Can I just start by saying how much I adore Epik High's "We've Done Something Wonderful" comeback album? They're so talented it gave me chills! Hard to pick a favorite but oh my god this song has been on repeat for days.

2. Mom, without you I'd be as lost as stray kittens. Happy birthday!

3. Happy anniversary to Mr & Mrs Fletcher, they're truly an inspiring couple. Couldn't help but to re-watch Tom Fletcher's heartwarming wedding speech.

4. Who doesn't love historical romance drama full of princesses, big castle and pretty dresses? Well I always do, and CW's TV series Reign will provide you that. The storyline is.. okay, not that great. Maybe I was just hypnotized by Toby Regbo's eyes.

5. Creating videos with my phone (only!) never been this easy before I know InShot. Full of tools, filters and cute stickers that I honestly just can't resist.

6. Finally bought another perfume after I completely shattered mine months ago (thank you clumsy hands). Picking a scent is tricky... and hard, at least for me. But this one has an enough amount of masculinity without being too strong.

7. Happy National Electricity Day!

8. My heart just broke after I saw this news. RIP Kim Joo Hyuk. Thank you for giving me so much laughter and happiness.





Monday, 16 October 2017

Dear self




Dear self,
You are a beautiful soul with a special character that just beam with light,  laughter and positivity. You deserve to be love and most importantly you deserve to be happy. Don't let your head trick you into thinking you are hard to love. I can promise you, you are not.
You don't have that perfect body, you're clumsy,  you're a mess sometimes and you cry at the most random time. But you know what? It doesn't matter because you have the right heart.
The heart that forgive people that wronged you.
The heart that care about people around you.
The heart that itch to help others in need.
And even when things around you seems to fall apart, you carry yourself, and you carry others.
So take pride in the battles you have fought.
Take pride in your ways of evolving into  the person you are now.
Because the person you are now, is perfect and more than enough.

Friday, 22 September 2017

2017 : What's up September?


I just can't believe it's September already. September always feel like a beginning of the end of the year, quite scary how time just flies. Hope you all have a great one! Here's few things that sum up my September :

1. Season 7 of Game of Thrones is finally over and I just can't get over it. It's sooo good! Can't believe we have to wait another year for that season finale.

2. Ansel Elgort and Violetta Komyshan is the definition of my Instagram #CoupleGoals.

3. Happy 10th anniversary to my favorite TV show back in highschool : Gossip Girl. Thank you for bringing me my all-time favorite OTP : Chuck and Blair.

4. My brother told me to watch Kevin Hart's Stand up Comedy.. and glad I did. I had a good laugh that night.

5. Can't stop using my Freeman Clay Mask  (Mint + Lemon). Leave my skin supple and clean.

6. I've been a Swifties throughout highschool. Sadly, I can't decide if I like her new single this time.

7. One Simple Change by Winnie Abramson. A great book if you want to start a healthy and better life.
 




Lil Ramble About Changes.



Change is inevitable, whether it's a big jaw-droppingly drastic changes or the little things that we don't even notice that much. Some see changes as a sign of growth and embrace it with both hands open. But for others changes can be quite scary... and stressful. Big changes happen to me too as I slowly enter my early quarter life period. New city, new environment and new people. Did you know how I feel? I felt like life just gave me a high kick and threw me out of my comfort zone. Yep, exactly like that.

 In that time, I was down. I was hoping wishing that I could get my old life back. But after quite some time, I slowly saw how much experiences and life-lessons that I take during that time of change. These changes for sure have made me a much wiser and better person. If these changes didn't happen, I probably didn't know how to live alone or ride a motorbike or learn how to cook, I probably be a much less knowledgeable person than what I am now. I start to see changes in different light.

Just like bad days, changes are also something that you can't avoid or run away from, but that's a good thing! Because it will open up new doors for you; full of opportunity, growth and experiences. Taking that few first step of change is not easy. Figuring out where things would lead you to is frustrating sometimes. But just remember this : It is sooo much better than being in the same place and stop evolving.

Trust in the process and look forward to where the magic of change would take you


Thursday, 15 June 2017

Happiness and Expressing Gratitude



"I think everybody should get rich and famous and do everything they ever dreamed of so they can see that it's not the answer." - Jim Carrey


I, just like everyone else, always wanting and searching for that state of " happiness". Then, just like how the society (mostly) is, I start to expect happiness in material things, possession, money and even people. As the time went on, I finally felt that there's missing link. Don't get me wrong, all of those things I mention is definitely making life easier in certain way, but in no way guarantees happiness.
So I start asking myself this question : what does one need then, to be happy?

After having quite a disappointment by searching externally, I start to search within. And I come into realization that maybe happiness doesn't lie in having more but rather by appreciating things you do have NOW. In other word, by being grateful. By practicing gratitude.
Instead of having a mindset of having more and more and more, I realize that by practicing gratitude, what I have is enough. Actually, sometimes even more than enough.

I see that often in life, we're just too focus on what's going wrong rather than looking for what's going right. We spend our days fixing things that's wrong, rant and moan about why things don't go the way we want it to be and we beat ourselves up for things that we do wrong or the mistakes we make. But we clearly spend less time to be thankful about what's going right in our life. Even little things like waking up in your own room, on your cozy bed, wrap in warm blanket and in healthy condition - we rarely feel thankful or grateful about it, right? That's why we often take things for granted.

So let's start embracing gratitude. Look for things in life to be happy about. Well, we can't deny that shit happens sometimes, but you should know you still have a LOT of things in your life to be excited about. You just have to start looking! If you still find it difficult, you can start by writing down things that you're grateful about each night in your own journal. Things that goes right that day. So when you're feeling down you can re-read all of those things that makes you happy. Little things, positive things. Start practicing and expressing gratitude continually, it can definitely shift our brain into thinking in a much more healthy and happy way.

Maybe, happiness is just a matter of perspective... and practice.

 Sabrina Putri.







Broken Souls




To all the broken souls out there,
to the one that going through a bruised and beaten heart
and what it seems like an endless pain.
I know you are tired of people walking away,
treating you like a second choice.
I know the world has let you down from time to time
and it seems like you will never see the light ever again.
But trust me, it will get better, Oh dear, IT WILL.
You'll finally be able to stand up again.
Even when your hands are trembling.
Even when your feets are stumbling.
You will push through all of it.
One day at a time.
So just hang on, for a little while.
Have faith and keep loving life with that big heart of yours.
Until it come the day when you look at yourself
and you'll see how far you've come..
And In that exact moment I hope you'll realize
you are,
healed.

Sunday, 4 June 2017

Things I'd Like to Say to My Future Kids


Kids, I wish I could tell you that life was going to be super easy and everyday will be exactly how you want it to be. But the truth is, you know sometimes there are days that just unavoidably, awfully sucks. That's just how life is. Well, don't let it freak you out and just be true to yourself. If there's one thing you should remember is that life isn't always about winning the race, it's about how you dance along til your heart's content. 

Sabrina putri.


Thursday, 1 June 2017

My Own Ways to De-stress

@dallasclayton


Here's a confession : 2016 - 2017 was not an easy year I must admit. It was a one hell of a rollercoaster ride, ugh even when I thought i was a relatively stress-free person, yep, no, it's still hard. So hard that it just drained me not only physically but mentally and emotionally as well.  Let me tell you why, from mid 2016 til now (mid 2017) I've been leaving my hometown and constantly moving in 4 different cities - can't even remember how many times I force myself to pack and unpack stuffs. I was constantly having a different environments and living spaces, and also meet bunch of new people and have a different group of friends all year round. Don't get me wrong, it's fun and all that, but not having that stability and a true 'home' you can come home to at the end of the day... is just difficult. Not to mention not seeing my parents - which was CLEARLY the hardest part.When that burdens built up, i was stressing out. Okay, maybe not so much on the outside, but in my mind I knew that I was just such a mess. So to make things right, I'm starting to find a way to really de-stress myself, and to really just calm myself down when things get hard. Here's a few ways that I found :

1. Unplug Your Devices and Set Up Some ME time.
 As an introvert, I know how important it is to have time to be alone and just recharge. Also, I personally think "Me Time" is just crucial to every human being. With all the things you should do, the responsibilities, the never ending interaction, the social noise and all that, let's just set time to reconnect with your inner self. To make it more powerful, I suggest to also disconnect to ANY devices that you have during that time. Then, you can do whatever it is to find way to reconnect with yourself, it can be a warm bath, meditate, reading or just writing things in your journal - the things you were grateful about toda - positive stuff!

2. Tidying Up Your Room
Okay.. I might sound so hypocritical right now. Because everyone who knows me know that I was FAR from an organize and tidy human being. In fact, I used to really hate cleaning and tidying up my stuffs. But now I realize that a clean and calm space can bring so much peacefulness to your mind. Having stuff just scatter all over the place will bring your mind into a more hectic state. Start small, like put things away to storage, change your bed sheets, clean your table, organize your wardrobe, and just making it as cozy as it can be. Besides, going home to a clean and tidy room was just the best thing ever, right?

3. Exercise (Your own way).
The more older I was the more I know myself better. And it lead me to realize that the reason I can't stick into any exercise plan is because it's not something that I truly like or enjoy. So pick only the things you truly like and don't push yourself to hard. When you do exercise that you truly enjoy, I guarantee it will be one of the best stress reliever. To back up my words, Science said that exercise and physical activity helps bump up the production of your brain's feel-good neurotransmitters, called endorphins. So this will definitely be the key to NOT ONLY a healthy you but also a happy you. :)

4. Talk It Out
I'm the kinda person who don't like to talk about my problems to.. literally, everyone. I only kept it to myself, because I used to have this mentality that whenever I want to talk about my problem, my mind just went like "Well.. even if I tell you about my problem, will you even understand how I feel? Do you even have a solid solution? Why do you care anyway?" - something like that. I see it as a sign of weakness. But now I know that it was the opposite way. By talking it out, well.. they may still do not understand it and the situation may not have change, but you'll feel so much better because by talking it out you actually admitting the problem and knowing that you will always have people that will stand by you through all of this.

Yep, long talk I know, I know..
But, I hope you'll find this helpful in some ways :)

Sabrina Putri.

Sunday, 23 April 2017

Human


Loss. Heartbreak. Endless wonder. Leaving home. Losing yourself. Finding yourself; becoming whole again. What a gift it truly is... to be human. ❤

Love is easy


In my past relationship, I used to think that love was complicated. It was never easy and always demanding. I painted the idea of love with doubts, insecurities, fights and pains. I never truly have that solid ground. The worst thing is, it kept me wondering "Was I ever be good enough?". When things came crushing down, I took all the blame. I questioned everything. I was slowly drifting away from myself.

But now, I finally believe that real love is easy. It doesn't consume your thoughts with doubt and insecurities. It lift you up and assured you. It doesn't change you into something you're not. Easy might sounds boring, but believe me it's not. Your soul will finally find peace and the best part is.. real love stays.

So if you're reading this and feels like you're in a relationship that is hard and complicated. A relationship that changes you and brings out the worst in you. A relationship that makes you less worth it than what you truly are. My best advice is to leave. Leave and don't look back. It is hard but I can promise you, your future self will thank you later.

Sabrina Putri.